Why I’m Moving to Duluth

I’ve always been attracted to things that are a bit unconventional. When I was younger, there were so many careers that I talked myself out of because other people said I would “make more money doing this” or “this will be way less stressful and will be better for the long-term”. I almost never pursued my degree of social work because I was convinced that another career path would have higher pay, and therefore I would be happier. There were plenty of places I dreamed of living, but never let myself think would actually be a feasible option for me. And if I never discovered how big of a load of bullshit this is, I wouldn’t be currently planning to move to a city I love with the man that I love. The old me would be too terrified to take this big of a step. The old me would rather stay safely tucked inside her comfort zone than to go after something she wanted so badly. The old me would be too terrified of screwing it all up.

But the new me has experienced terrible loss and grief, and is no longer willing to accept mediocrity and settling for less. The new me wants to chase after all of the things I want but am afraid of, because I now know all too well how short life truly is. The new me is ignoring all the questions of “But why do you want to move when you have a good job, nice apartment, and family and friends all right here? This is a nice town!” As well meaning as it may be, my reasons are very clear.

  1. I’m in love with Duluth. It is a city I have always wanted to live in, and now is as good of a time as any to finally move to a place I have always wanted to be.
  2. I am in a committed relationship and have been for over two and a half years now. When you know, you just know. He’s in Duluth and I want to be with him. All the more reason for why I think Duluth is wonderful.
  3. After losing my best friend to cancer at 22 years old, everything in my current town reminds me of her and all the memories we have here. Of course I want to remember her, but I want to do that in ways that don’t feel completely depressing. I need a fresh start, and I know she would want that for me, too.

So many people go their entire lives without ever really letting themselves go after things they truly want, and I don’t want to be like that. I want to wake up in a city that inspires me and gives me opportunities to do things that make me feel alive. I don’t want to go the rest of my life wondering what could have been. It’s finally time to start creating a life I love.

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