Enough

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I finally let my guard down, and everything falls apart.

I think I’m where I’m meant to be, but then doubt rips through my heart.

Balancing the weight feels like a bomb or a grenade.

One tiny misstep and I ruin everything I’ve made.

Sometimes I feel lucky to do what’s in my heart.

But other days I wonder if this is just the start.

Will I always feel so insecure, like I am two feet small?

Does it get easy as time goes by, am I made for this at all?

I felt so sure right from the start, but doubt’s been creeping in.

And I’ve never been one for giving up,

I don’t want them to win.

They win if I quit without giving my all,

but that means finally tearing down the walls.

What if, without them, I can’t handle the fight?

What if it makes me not sleep at night?

If I’m not meant to be here, if I don’t make the cut,

I’m not sure I’ll find a place that ever makes me feel like I’m enough.

Discovery

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A tiny little speck against all of mankind

And all of the things that we left behind

All of the meaning and all of the peace

I seek it out just as it seeks out me

Peace among men and peace in our souls

How do we find it when we are not whole

So big and so vast is this world where we stand

The disconnect leads us to not understand

We don’t understand, or listen, or see

But we just expect to have and receive

Taking up space in our minds and our hearts

Constantly bringing us further apart

We look to the past and the future ahead

But we miss the right now, and the path that we tread

We search out the love, and the joy, and content

But we miss the connection, our energy spent

We look to the stars and dream out sweet dreams

And find out that things are not quite what they seem